Time for clarity.
Before I type anything else, I want to pass along some news. Lisa wrote about it in her blog this morning—I found out this week I need to have heart surgery.
I shouldn’t be surprised. Every one of my siblings has had heart trouble of some kind, as have both of my parents. Which is why I did the electro- and echocardiograms, the stress test, and the heart catheter. Because I wanted to know, and now I know.
Things like this are clarifying. Over the past few days I’ve asked myself repeatedly what I want my life to look like for whatever time I have left. And the truth is I want it to look a lot like it does now.
I get to spend every day with the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen, both within and without. I get to work with people I both enjoy and deeply respect. I get to spend my days doing work that matters to me.
And I get to spend part of every day communing with the gods, dancing with the Muse, treading the Divine Ground. Whether it’s occasional writing for Finding Sanctuary, writing this newsletter, composing my next album, or the new musical challenge I’ve set for myself, I love being part of the flow from the as-yet-unmanifested world to this one.
I am deeply and abundantly fortunate in all of this, and I am filled with gratitude every single day.
My warmest regards,
Philip