Having it all figured out
Good morning friends.
One of the sweetest balms to my mind is the comfort of knowing exactly what to do next, and knowing exactly how to do it.
As comforting as it is, I’ve come to see that feeling of control as a sweet, deathly dream that entrances me into believing I’m awake.
I’ve been experimenting with shedding that illusion and open myself up to the fact that I don’t have it figured out. Any of it. No matter what “it” is. I don’t have my own creativity figured out, much less anyone else’s. Even my own emotions are opaque to me sometimes. And other people? Hahahaha please.
How I’ve been trying to shed that illusion in each situation has been to simply show up, listen, and flow. It’s taken a lot of pressure off of me. I don’t feel like I have to know what to do next. I don’t have to know everything. I only have to show up with a heart that is open.
Paradoxically, dispensing with this illusion of control is opening the door to a deeper well of trust in myself and the Universe. It doesn’t mean casting aside everything I’ve learned. But it does mean starting with discovering what is, embracing it, and having faith that good will come of it.
For me, this is one of the paths to the Divine Ground.
I hope your Wednesday is a blessed one.
My very best,
Philip